Struggling with stupid Chemistry. The lab is fun. I think the homework would be fun if it wasn't STORY PROBLEMS! I freeze on story problems. Horrible anxiety. I ask others in the class what their thinking process was...they don't speak English. They can write it, they cannot explain it. My lab partner is smart and teaches math at a private school, but, has a horrible habit of not showing work. I just requested a Chemistry tutor. I just don't have m, km, cm and their numbers memorized. I need a little help to catch up. The online Math Lab I took during the summer did not prepare me.

On a good note, I am working 4 hours a week at the Ambulatory Infusion Center. I work in A-POD. Funny name, eh? I do a little stocking, a little clean up, a little phone answering, a little waiting on patients and making them comfortable. It's great.

I should be shadowing Dr. ERF (initials, don't want her name popping up via my blog) this month. I want to get insecure and paranoid, but, she always answers me right back. I just need to keep in mind she is a very busy professional woman with a family. Not only is she an OB/GYN she is the medical director of her clinic. It takes 6 weeks to see her now. So, I am lucky to have my beloved Facebook to stay in contact with her. Better than email. Speaking of Facebook and Doctor's. I just got in touch with Jarred's ex-uncle. All through Facebook. He is one of the Professor's of Surgery at Harvard Medical School. OMG! It makes me want to pee my pants over what luck. Counting on this year going well, I will see if I can job shadow him in two summers. I want to go when I am actually attending University of Washington. Do you know how many premeds would KILL to job shadow this guy??? This is not bragging, this is the desire to pass out over the door this connection can open. In the medical world, who you know and networking can mean better schools and better hospitals. Sad, but, true. Nor am I above using that connection. I am putting too much time and energy into school to not make sure it works.

A few years ago I would have cried and struggled. Felt sorry for myself. Now I just don't give up. The last two classes I felt like this in (Pyschology and Spanish II) I still managed to pull a 3.9. What doesn't kill me will make me stronger. Okay, had to give myself a pep talk. Not sure anyone else will. Ha! Okay, maybe Katherine will. I don't even think anyone checks this anymore. I am writing into outer space. Into the deep WEB. Ha! Putting the kids to bed so I can work on my Math. Good thing Math isn't annoying me.

Sometimes I feel like I am the Scarecrow off of the Wizard of OZ....I wish I had a brain!!!

I am taking Intensivo Espanol this quarter.  I am pulling a 100% on my daily homework.  Which takes me 1.5-3hours to complete.  I do a little here and a little there.  You have 1 week to learn 2 weeks worth of material.  My head hurts from cramming it full of strange words.  I scored a 92% my first quiz.  I like higher scores (who doesn't?)  I will take the score.  Anything above a 3.6 this summer will be fine.  It's a lot of material for such a short time.  School talk, I am sure it's boring to everyone, but it's what is happening.